"Sing me something soft, sad and elegant."

I'd like to being today with an apology. Last week I ended my post with "XOXO Gossip Girl"
What I failed to realize is a couple months ago a dear friend of mine used that sign-off in a blog of her own. Please forgive me.
But I've got a lot of thoughts today so let's do this:
First of all I'd like to explain how grateful I am for families. My friend's family is in town this week from New York. They are wonderful. They came to church today even though they aren't Mormon, and one of them even spoke in Fast and Testimony Meeting. Why did they do this? Because they're a family, and they knew that this church is important for my friend.
My family has been super supportive lately. As you all know by now I am working on going on a mission. My family has been so fabulous in supporting that and helping me to accomplish it. I'm glad that I have a family that can encourage and enable me to go.
Moving right along...
I recently "broke up" with my significant other. For all of those who have been following our story I believe this is for the last time. We've been fighting what we know is right for a while. While I was dating this person it became increasingly difficult for me to focus on my mission. We were both filled with feelings that it wasn't right for us to date, but we both kept fighting these feelings. Well we finally decided to end it. (Fo'real this time.) The thing is...ever since we did this I've been filled with different feelings. Feelings of peace and happiness. I've been able to feel the spirit a lot better also. If it wasn't right I don't think I'd be feeling like this. Yes, it was very tough for us to come to this conclusion, but sometimes the right things are the hardest things.
Doing them is what makes them worth it.
NEXT!
Lately I've been feeling strange. My emotions have been a little wacky lately. I get really upset about little things, and I've been feeling super attached to unimportant matters. I think the reason behind this is it's the adversary playing on my emotions. He knows I want to do this great thing. He doesn't want me to do it. I've been feeling pulled and stretched and I'm trying to understand the greater purpose in the things I do. My bishop told me that before I left for my mission that things were going to get tough. I feel that this is only the beginning, but I'm grateful that I'm recognizing it now so I can better prepare myself for what's to come.
I've made a lot of new friends lately. This is weird for me because when I moved back from Utah I became very introverted and reclusive. I have to say that I like it. It fills me with so much happiness and reassurance. These people are great, and I know they want only the best for me.
One last thought to end the post:
I've been studying the Bible with my older sister lately. As she and I were studying last week I made a statement about faith that I'd like to share.
It goes: We don't serve the Lord to prove to Him that we have faith. We serve because when we have faith it's something we desire to do naturally.
Have a wonderful day my faithful readers!