"The way black is black and blue is just blue"

Hey Comrades!

Sorry it's been a bit since my last blog-activity. I find myself busy and lacking extra time. As some of you know these past two months have been interesting for me as far as my love life. I've struggled with a certain someone for a little while, but you will be pleased to hear it's all been put to rest. A really important person in my life once told me that I have a lot of potential, and that I should never settle for anything that makes me feel like I deserve less than I do. That being said, things are over.

Moving on to much more important topics:

I've been toying with an interesting idea lately. I say it's interesting because it is. It's just that; interesting. I want to serve a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. It's a tiny bit difficult for me since I am divorced, but it's been known to happen before. These past few months my testimony has grown leaps and bounds, and I find myself bursting at the seams to share it all with the world. It's definitely something I'm going to look into.

Another topic:

I find that sometimes I'm surprised by things I do. I wonder if I really know myself very well. People are interesting creatures in that often times we act and react to things involuntarily. When we go through a break up we may try to make ourselves feel better by seeking attention. When we're hurting we may put on a front and pretend that everything is okay. When we're feeling insecure we may lash out at people around us to overcompensate for our feelings of inadequacy. Why do we do these things? Do they ever really make us feel better? No.

Lately when I find myself heading for situations like these the best course is to drop to my knees and thank the Lord for every great thing in my life. Instead of noticing what I'm without I spend time thanking the One that gave me what I have.

I'm so amazed at how much I need the Savior in my life. We all ask for help day after day, and He always gives us what we need. He asks for so little in return. I'm truly so thankful for my personal, individual blessings.

As a side note:

I went to a Q&A panel this past week. The panelists were three Mormons and two Muslims. I was shocked to find that our two religions are so similar. I think it's wonderful when, as children of God, we can get together and share our beliefs. It's great to be educated about something that is so innately important to other people. I expect people to sit and listen about what I believe, but how often do I listen to what others believe? It was a beautiful experience, and I'd love to continue to learn more. I learned a lot more about my religion that day as well...sometimes I think that from listening to others' beliefs...it puts into sharp focus things that we may not have noticed about our own. It was truly spectacular.

So boys and girls:

Another day, another blog. Thank you for reading. I love you all.