"And it's never felt like this before. It's never felt like home."

So as you may have read in my last blog my mind has been busy lately. I've decided to make some really important changes in my life, and I'm super excited about them. They are as follows:
1. Growing my hair out long. Upon first glance you may ask yourself, "Why is this an important change?" Well, if you don't already know I have never had long hair. When my hair gets to be about as long as my chin I get pretty nervous and cut it all off. Not this time though. I think I need to do this in order to strengthen my resolve in setting goals.
2. I'm going back to school. This one is pretty obvious about why it's important. I was watching a TV show about doctors the other day, and I realized that they had a pretty important job. Doctors, that is...not actors. On a daily basis they're working to save lives. About the most important thing I do in my profession is make management look good so they can get their bonuses. Lame. So I'm going back to school. My goal is to have enough money by Spring of 2010 to go back. I'm still toying with what I want to do from E.S.L. teacher to nurse practitioner. There's a whole slew of options I'm considering, but that's the best part...that I have options. :)
3. I'm taking a time-out on dating. I've always been pretty straight forward and aggressive when it came to dating. However, I'm taking a new approach. No dating. None. If a guy asks me on a date I'll say yes, but as far as being serious with anyone...I just don't think I'm ready for multiple reasons. It's time to become comfortable being with me, and when I can achieve that, then I can work on becoming comfortable with someone else.
-Also-
Whilst I was doing all of this thinking I figured something out.
In a good relationship there's a distinct difference between love and commitment. What is love? (Baby don't hurt me) Love is ignoring faults. Love is passion. Love is difficult. Love is a feeling; an emotion. Love comes from being "in love." Love is understanding someone for who they are, and accepting that they aren't perfect. Love is the thing in relationships that lasts long after you've discovered the other person's dirt. Can we have love without commitment? What is commitment? Commitment is honesty. Commitment is trust. Commitment is honoring and respecting someone beyond yourself. See the thing is...I think you can be "in love" without commitment. And I think you can be committed to someone that you don't love. But to truly love someone...like the capital L kind of Love...I think total commitment is required. If you don't have that, then how can you say you really love someone?
This all made a lot more sense in my head, and as I'm writing it now I find that I'm not saying what I want to say...but oh well.